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Name: Savanah
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fort Worth
Birthday: 11/10/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: My amazing Awesome boyfriend that means the world to me* Dancing * Loving my familiy * text * Tan * Sparks * Hanging out with my sister (Amanda)*
Expertise: Spastic and sumtimes random person~Loving my friends and family, and especially Corey Lane !!!!!
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  savimarie88
Member Since:
5/6/2005
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| YOu are always giving things to look forward to in life and i don't think it could get any better right now. I have the love of this amazing guy, my mom is coming in town in two weeks and ill at home in a month to see my best friend. Granted im sick from being here i still don't think that im used to the weather here because im always sick and it sucks but it's life. But basically im so happy and it couldn't get any better than it is right now. So for all of you that read this no that your shit can't get me down and those that still care i love you guys and i miss you tons. And i hope that life is still going good for you guys as well.
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| I guess it's how these things work. It's a new year so people like to believe that the old them the less popular less prettier less poorer version of them is going to change this year. Well like the rest of the world I have a news years resolution but i didn't get it until recently.
Yes I will admit that I have made some mistake my first year at college but who hasn't it's your first year away from home and no boundaries to worry about and all that that implies. I'm not going to go into all my mistakes, because i don't want to have to face them again but i know what i have to go this semester not only to prove to people that i am different but to prove to myself.
I have meet some amazing people sense I have been here and I think that I have found the one guy that I think I could really be with but I don't really know if he likes me for me, I mean I know that he likes me for part of me but i don't know if it's the whole of me that he likes. Two night ago I guess that would make it the the 9th i stayed the night with him and went a little farther than i would have wished and if some of you read this and are like what the hell, than get over it's life I didn't say that I was proud of it but it's the first time that I have actually been with a guy in a long time and it meant something. Besides when things were really good between corey and I.
But other than that, sense these thoughts have popped into my head I don't know how to act around him I don't know what to say or do or how to act. I don't know what it is that he likes me about me therefor i don't know what side of me i have to give and for true love to go than it shouldn't matter. I m not saying that it's true love or even if it's love, maybe it's just two lonely people in this world and we found something that we like in each other and were passing time. And than in that case does it make it wrong? I mean can friendship really grow into trust and than respect and than love and that into a long relationship is that the fairy take ending that everyone wants, or is that just the way that my mind works. I don't really know what to think right now but i know that this is the first time in a long time that i can't get my thoughts right I can't get them to come out right and I don't know what to do.
Again another cliques is that In time, time heals all things. But what if it's not the heart that is broken and it's the person within. I mean I honestly thought that after tony i would never love someone again wouldn't let that happen again, or let another human get that close. I mean i know that I have had relationships after and that I have told corey I love and even AJ. And while yes i can say that parts of me did love him, AJ not so much.
But how does a person know that true love does exist and this is not just me being lonely and having time on my hands to think about all of this. And if so does this make me weak?
I not having control over what my mind thinks, but maybe this is all a dream, I mean I have never felt or experenced anything like this before so I mean I guess if what we dream might be reality, why what we see as reality not be a dream!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is the real question and that my friends is something that, my mind can not answer. Not now with this boy at the base of every thought and not ever. But i know that I can't give someone that power again, that power to make me a little girl, that power that i would bend over backwards if it hurt me to make them happy. I just wish I knew what was going on.
But these are my thoughts today there wll be more to come.Always is
Savanah marie.
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| BIRTHDAY TODAY!
AND IT'S ONLY NOON AND IT'S GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know what i would do with out the amazing people that i have meet here. I went home wednesday and it was fun don't get me wrong but dang I love the people here there so real. And my birthday is by far the best ever. I feel like I have more than two friends for once, and it's the best feeling in the world! I was mad that I had to come to school here but it turns out to be the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love it, I love the 3 vases of Dasiys that i woke up to and the james avery box that I got from my boo! hehe I love you guys and I just want to get it out there Im about to go shopping to get some warm cute winter cloths. so thats going to be good and than corey will be here tonight and we get to do our thing tomorrow. YEAH! I feel like a little kid on christmas. I
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| Life is going great for once. I love it here which is surprising seeing how i used to hate coming up here, but i guess things are a lot different when you have friends and you can actually do stuff. Anyways enough about that. I have the most amazing people here. There are a lot to name so im just going to do the bestest for now. HEHE!!!!!! Kayla is first my most amazing roommate ever, i love her she is so cute. Than Leta while she is a little different i think that we are so much a like it's crazy and for once a girl that is like an inch taller than i am i love it here, they breed them big girls. But of course what would this be without the typical guy drama which is small. Don't get me wrong i love corey and we have are bad days but we have amazing ones as well. But there is this one guy that im talking to and i think i like him because he is something that i have never had before and he isn't all over me which is different and i can't read him. Hes really cool to hang out with. Although he is a senior and a mechanical enginer he is a sweet heart and not all about the books, he has bronze as well. I just think it's weird for me to fall for a guy that has a plan with his life and it's not something stupid it has real substance. hehe Anyways this weekend im going to see corey friday than saturday is the football game and sunday night im going to the fair. I love that i can go to that and not worry about getting shot or whether not i would get my car broken into while i was there. Don't get me wrong i still miss fort worth, like the warm weather. It was like 60 degrees here this morning it was insane, im glad that i didn't have an air conditoner because i would have died. But i have to go i got class again at one. I love you cassie and i hope that everything works out with you and your man.
<3
Vanna
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| Very few people get the chance to start over and well i am happy to say that i have that chance here. Im now a freshmen at WTAMU and i love it here. There are a couple of people here that i went to school with but non that i really knew so it's all good. I have amazing friends here all ready and it feels like i have know them my whole life. Leta is truely the half that makes me whole. Shes from austin so shes got that crazy personality working for her. for once i have a friend that is my height and i love that for once. hehe anyways basically i have nothing to complain about. Our first football game was thursday night and that was pretty much the greatest thing. HEHE! So far the work isn't too hard but i love my classes. I am deff glad that i choose to come here. I know that things wouldn't be this good in Austin if i went to Texas State. Well thats it for now about to go see my father so that i can do some laundry and i don't have to pay.
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